Just Give Up

Just give up, that has become my mantra. I’ve been saying it repeatedly since Thursday evening. Just give up. A big part of my issues with my dad are caused by me wanting him to be a dad. I realized he is never going to be a father figure to me. There is too much in the past, there is too much history for him to ever be a dad, a real dad. Just give up. Instead I need to look to God to be my Abba. In life, I just need to give up. Give it all to God, all my “concerns”, all my problems, everything that comes into my life. I need to quit thinking about all the medical stuff going on. Just give up. I need to stop trying to figure out who in my life is “the one”. Just give up. If there’s supposed to be someone in my life, God will bring him into my life. God should be first in my life; I need to give it all to God. Just give up. Stop trying to be strong; stop trying to pretend to be strong and just admit that I am weak and unable to do it myself. God’s strength is made perfect through my weakness.